Yesterday, I had a very interesting conversation with someone on IM, who I consider to be more on the friend side than associate or acquantance. I hadn’t talked to him in a minute. He is a good sounding board for me when I need a true honest male perspective on pretty much any situation in my life. He has no ulterior motives and he has always given me things straight, so I definitely respect his opinion and seek it when I need to know if my gut is right. Kinda like another Rob, but black (LOL). Anthony, I appreciate ya (I know you read ). Anyway, I had a fit of paranoia the other day and had left him a IM message and then he responded offline saying call him because he was going to be away. Well, I recognized the paranoia and didn’t need him to talk me thru it, but he still checked up on me and apologized for not being there. He was really sorry and disappointed that he could not be there to talk to me even though he was busy with work. A fine excuse if you ask me. But as a friend I feel him you always want to be there when your friend needs you never want to be to busy to be bothered and if you do then the person probably isn’t really a friend of yours. Its nice in your life to recognize that. I digress, because this is not where this blog is going, its going to the fact that as I was chatting with him about what has been going on in my life since we last talked, I realized that as this year closes I am the most happiest (that means happier than happy!!) I have been in a very long time. I feel like after all the changes I’ve gone thru this year I have finally gotten to a place that is happy for me. I am so happy right now, and really didn’t realize it fully until I was talking to him about it. It just seems everything is right, not perfect cause I know life isn’t. I am happy with the friends I have, the job I have, the future I have, even the male prospects in my life (although I ain’t holding my breath- but I have become excellent at stopping the bullshyt before it starts!). All the sectors seem to be right and in balance. I am excited about the New Year and I think great things are waiting for me. Sometimes, I sit and think it is amazing how we as humans can let one person or relationship suck our life force. For a minute I thought that’s all I did was trade one life force sucking person for another, but I believe I got it right these days! Man, it feels good to be an OG right now!! I hope y’all have a great weekend because I know I will.